And then it happened

We all have ex boyfriends. There's a reason why things did not work out between two people. Sometimes it leaves you frustrated, confused, empty, and ultimately hurt. My ex thought I needed to date other people and "see" the world. And he hopes that somewhere down the road I would come back to him. We were together for two and a half years. Honestly, that feels like forever. My ex left for Pakistan after thanksgiving and that's where he still is. After a bit, he stopped all forms of communication which included blocking me on Facebook (really??). And yesterday I got a text from a girlfriend that I wish I didn't get.

She sent me a message "Jeanie, I'm not trying to be stalkerish but do you know Munib is in a relationship?" I'm confused so I'm like wait what? I mean he was bound to move on ya know? But that's not what bothers me the most. The idea that all your friends are blowing up your phone and rubbing it in your face. I mean don't get me wrong. I know they care. But sometimes it's better that I don't know certain things. So me being curious, I checked his personal FB the one he has strictly for family. And there before my very eyes his status was MARRIED.

I didn't want to believe it. We've been broken up for less than 5 months, and I find out he's frickin married? You've got to be kidding me!! Sadly, it's not a joke. His sisters, and other family member's are sending congratulations his way. And then it hit me. Like a complete surreal moment. Then I had a bitch moment. It's like you dumped me and married a girl named Ishrat, and part of her name has RAT in it. Just saying.


It hurts. It really does. And it makes me question myself. Its like what if he knew he was going to Pakistan at the end of the year. To get married whether it was arranged or not. What would have happened to me if we were still together? Would I have to accept it and be ok with that? Hell no. I just keep questioning myself. But I'm trying to stay positive. You live, you learn, and what hurts you now only makes you stronger.

2012 Looks Positive

+ Vacations with the girls
+ College GRADUATION in May
+ Get back into blogging

Merry Christmas

to my fellow bloggers, friends, and family. May Santa bring you everything you wanted and more.

It's official

I've completed all my major requirements especially IR 550. This has been the most tedious, horrific, mind boggling course ever. It started with the professor saying I had no sense of direction, and he questioned my ability whether I would be able to meet the standards of this course. Well, after my 30 minute presentation back in November, I blew him away. May I present my final thesis paper 45 pages with over 70 sources!!!

After what feels like a million nights of countless editing, drafting, and researching. I've finished!!! Get this, I turned it in well over a week before he was expecting it. I can jump for joy and relax now. I'll be getting my BA this spring. I can almost taste it. Now, I just got to get on declaring a minor.

Lulus Lustlist

Buh bye Indian summers! It's getting more brisk, and chilly outside. Yet I have no urge to bundle up just yet. Personally, I'm not a big fan of tights but I will wear them once the rain comes to play. I want to wear dresses all winter long, that is if the weather permits it. Browsing through Lulu's these dresses caught my eyes.

 

Black friday is just around the corner, but I don't think I want to wake up and deal with hectic, sleepless, crazies just to steal a bargain. Thank god for online shopping!