Thursday, January 12, 2012

And then it happened

We all have ex boyfriends. There's a reason why things did not work out between two people. Sometimes it leaves you frustrated, confused, empty, and ultimately hurt. My ex thought I needed to date other people and "see" the world. And he hopes that somewhere down the road I would come back to him. We were together for two and a half years. Honestly, that feels like forever. My ex left for Pakistan after thanksgiving and that's where he still is. After a bit, he stopped all forms of communication which included blocking me on Facebook (really??). And yesterday I got a text from a girlfriend that I wish I didn't get.

She sent me a message "Jeanie, I'm not trying to be stalkerish but do you know Munib is in a relationship?" I'm confused so I'm like wait what? I mean he was bound to move on ya know? But that's not what bothers me the most. The idea that all your friends are blowing up your phone and rubbing it in your face. I mean don't get me wrong. I know they care. But sometimes it's better that I don't know certain things. So me being curious, I checked his personal FB the one he has strictly for family. And there before my very eyes his status was MARRIED.

I didn't want to believe it. We've been broken up for less than 5 months, and I find out he's frickin married? You've got to be kidding me!! Sadly, it's not a joke. His sisters, and other family member's are sending congratulations his way. And then it hit me. Like a complete surreal moment. Then I had a bitch moment. It's like you dumped me and married a girl named Ishrat, and part of her name has RAT in it. Just saying.

It hurts. It really does. And it makes me question myself. Its like what if he knew he was going to Pakistan at the end of the year. To get married whether it was arranged or not. What would have happened to me if we were still together? Would I have to accept it and be ok with that? Hell no. I just keep questioning myself. But I'm trying to stay positive. You live, you learn, and what hurts you now only makes you stronger.

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